To Forgive, or Not: That is the Question

If you know anything about Jesus, you know he tells us to forgive.  In fact the words forgive, forgiven and forgiveness appear in the bible 134 times.  His message is plain as day.  But I’m having trouble.  

I’m struggling to forgive a certain someone in my life and I’m not sure what to do.  I just don’t know if I can get over what he’s done.

Here’s the guy I’m talking about:

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Guilty as charged!

Why am I having trouble?  Because last night this 80-lb Lab mix ate over 2 dozen oatmeal cookies.  Likely closer to 3 dozen.  It’s not the first time.

From the day we met him Mason he has been sneaky.   We adopted him 4 years ago from a pet fair at our local mall.  I wasn’t even looking for a dog.  But there he was, all cute, all calm, all smiles.

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Mason at the pet fair, before we adopted him.

And of course he had this wonderfully sad background story;  he was a stray, likely abused.  The pound picked him up and then he got really sick and almost died. But a local  veterinarian donated her services and performed surgery on him to save his life. Now he was up for adoption.  My daughters and I couldn’t let this sweet little fellow go.  And he got along so well with our sweet Sadie dog.

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Abby with Mason and Sadie the day we brought him home.

So we brought him home and he was a complete angel for about three days.  Then the next night, at about 2:00 am, he ran upstairs and jumped in our bed, scaring the daylights out of Steve and me.  Then he began jumping up on the counters and eating our butter.  Then he began eating anything we left out: bread, pizza, brownies, Easter candy, cookies, hedgehog food, anything he could find.

Next he ate the couch.  Lucky for him it was a couch that already needed replacing, otherwise we’d have been finding him a new home.

At first we chalked it up to his background.  When we got him he was a mere 40 lbs, about 25 pounds underweight.  And despite his voracious appetite, he had some redeeming qualities.  He and our other dog got along quite well.  He was a great playmate for our kids.  Best of all he was already house trained.  So we made sure to put the food away and enjoyed our new pooch.

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Mason’s first camping trip.                    Mason’s first pedicure.

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 Sadie & Mason; his first Christmas with us

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Mason and Abby at the playground.             Tuckered out after a day of play.

And he got better.  He eventually quit getting into everything.  And we got complacent about putting things up.  Occasionally he would get into the butter, but for the most part he was good.

But now.  Now Sadie has passed away and for whatever reason, ever since then Mason has turned into well, a total pest. 

When we’re home he’s a complete angel, follows me around the house, quietly resting at my feet wherever I go.  But when we leave he scavenges.  He gets into the trash, eats any food he can find, chews on the furniture.  When he wet the carpet (a first), I’d had enough.

We got a crate and whenever we leave the house, he’s in it.  It was good for us as he couldn’t destroy anything. It’s good for him as it’s allowed him to remain in his happy home.

But then…

Last night, my daughter, the last one to leave the house, fed Mason and then locked him in the crate.  Except she only locked the top latch of the crate, accidentally leaving the bottom one unhooked.  And that’s when sneaky Mason pushed his way out of his crate and feasted on our cookies.

Foiled again. 

So now I’m left mad and sad and frustrated.

How could he do this to me? After all we’ve done for him?  How could he take for us granted like that?  Will this never end?

Frankly I can hardly look at him. Apparently he feels badly; as he can’t look at me either. 

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Don’t tell me dogs don’t have emotions.

So this morning, we are at a standstill.  Should I forgive again or am I just setting myself up for future agony?  As I write this, Mason lies snoring my feet.

Who am I kidding? It’s useless.  No matter how hard I try to stay mad, my heart weakens. I know the good in Mason.  I know it’s likely the things he has gone through in his life that make him imperfect, cause him to screw up again and again and again.

Who am I to cast the first stone?  I too, am a sinner and I too, have been forgiven.  Many, many times.

All I can say it’s a good thing for Mason that I am a woman of faith, and, that I’m a sucker for a sweet face with a sad background story. 

About thewritertracy

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12 Responses to To Forgive, or Not: That is the Question

  1. Bill and Rene Behrend says:

    And, if all else fails, we can start a support group, you and I.  Instead of Formerly Employed Mothers At the Leading Edge (I am surprised we ever even joined a group with such an idiotic name and met….), we can call it CAPOWE – Currently Annoyed Pet Owners at Wits End – and instead of sharing potty training stories, we can talk about all the mischief of our furry little friends. My therapy (and revenge :)) has been dressing her up and taking photographs of her……. From: The Writer Tracy To: behrend4@yahoo.com Sent: Saturday, March 14, 2015 8:58 AM Subject: [New post] To Forgive, or Not: That is the Question #yiv6994855071 a:hover {color:red;}#yiv6994855071 a {text-decoration:none;color:#0088cc;}#yiv6994855071 a.yiv6994855071primaryactionlink:link, #yiv6994855071 a.yiv6994855071primaryactionlink:visited {background-color:#2585B2;color:#fff;}#yiv6994855071 a.yiv6994855071primaryactionlink:hover, #yiv6994855071 a.yiv6994855071primaryactionlink:active {background-color:#11729E;color:#fff;}#yiv6994855071 WordPress.com | thewritertracy posted: “If you know anything about Jesus, you know he tells us to forgive.  In fact the words forgive, forgiven and forgiveness appear in the bible 134 times.  His message is plain as day.  But I’m having trouble.  I’m struggling to forgive a certain someone ” | |

  2. Those paws with nail paint was so cute! 🙂

  3. DIana Lorenzen says:

    What a awesome story, Tracy!!Poor Mason..I pray you will forgive him again…and..I have a feeling you will!!!!:)) He is so cute..I am such a dog lover myself!!!!

  4. Joyce Welbaum says:

    All animal lovers understand your need to forgive! We would probably do the same thing.

    • Dogs are funny, I feel like he knows I’ve been upset with him. We’ve had 5 dogs over te years and I’ve never had the heart to give one away no matter what he’s done. Maybe they sense that in me, haha!

  5. Gail Mehlan says:

    I don’t have a dog, but I do have a few family members who need a little forgiving! Enjoyed reading your blog!

  6. Karen Hahn says:

    He misses Sadie! Get him a new friend? That should help!

    • Good to hear from you Karen! Haha, I think you are right, he misses Sadie. But don’t think we’ll be getting him a new friend anytime soon! 😉 He is going to have to get his love from his people friends for now.

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